Do what I say, and remember…

contradiction

I live in a world where I’m told to be true to myself.

And that is easy.

I live quickly.

I care unconditionally.

I love strongly.

I respect myself.

I honour others.

 

I live in a world where I’m told to treat others how I would like to be treated.

And that is easy.

I listen actively.

I support unquestioningly.

I converse honestly.

I negotiate considerately.

I behave mindfully.

 

I live in a world where I’m told to consider how others will perceive my actions.

And that is challenging.

I analyse my words.

I examine my intentions.

I place myself in the shoes of another.

I worry about appropriateness.

I fear putting one foot out of place.

 

I live in a world where I’m judged by the values of others.

And that is perturbing.

I attempt to mind read to inform accepted action.

I twist my own values to gain acceptance.

I veil my own thoughts to prevent confrontation.

I engage shallowly to dissuade conflict.

I suspend my identity to fit with expectation.

 

I live in a world where I’m told how to be.

And that is a falsehood.

I talk but don’t communicate.

I compromise instead of negotiate.

I suppress my emotions for they are “too strong”

I deny my empathy for it is unrealistic.

I wear a mask showing people their expectations.

 

I live in a world that encourages individuality.

I live in a world which expects consideration.

But that world promotes judgement.

It demands conformity.

It denies acceptance.

The world punishes failure to reconcile the contractions.

And subsequently I die inside in order to survive.

 

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